Monday, September 15, 2008

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Garden of Love

idk... i found this poem i wrote in 7th grade... it amazed me how much i understood and how talented i was to put such a well thought out poem together... just thought i'd post it idk maybe share it for anyone who needed a little something to read. well here it is... (:


In my garden of love
Are flowers of all kinds
In my garden of love
Flowers are very easy finds

In my garden of love
Where flowers are friends
And how many flowers
You grow it depends

No greater gift does life send,
Than you for such a wonderful friend!

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

&& everything's just wrong. when ur not here next to me... ♥ [[day3]]

tomorrow.... :)

i hope u missed me... if u told me the truth.. and that u didn't, i suppose i'd be a little hurt.. but i'd definitely be happier u were honest with me regardless of the fact that we all know sometimes "the truth hurts".. well... for me... to be honest, i missed you.. a lot. i know at some times i tried soo hard to not think about it.... but in the end.. i couldn't help it... u mean so much to me... today robot rock came on the radio and i go "ohh he likes this song..." :) and i stop.. and she goes... "stop imagining him. i know you are... you have that look." but.. i didn't stop... i didn't care.... i was smiling... and you were with me.. for a minute..... hmm... :) and tomorrow the second you can use your phone, i really hope... that first call is to me. i can't describe what it feels like to see your name light up on my phone screen.. hehe i wish it'd show up on my screen more often lol but w/e anyways.. :) i've realized i could prbbly last longer... but i don't wanna. hahhaa i miss you... and love you... definitely the second one. hahaha not to say that i don't mean the first one... ugh nvm hahaha both of em... i miss you... i love you steven.

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder."

xoxo Love, your baby...

Monday, July 21, 2008

&& everything's just wrong. when ur not here next to me... ♥ [[day2]]

here i go again... just tomorrow... and then next day ur back... i can do it :)

i know that thinking of you all the time is sweet, and cute, and whatever else... but right now... trying to take my mind off of you.. makes me feel better... and right now... night times worse... just like u used to tell me... day time is fine it's all cool there are ppl and stuff that can kinda get ur mind off of it.. well not off of it but it's just ok to think about cuz u don't get a lot of time to think about it... but at night.... it's different and ur alone... u've got all night to think... alright well it doesn't matter.. right now i'm talking with her about how sweet u r, cute u r, and how ahmaazing u r... :) i'm thinking of u... and idc how much it hurts.... i'm not crying. and i'm getting stronger. :) ..... i love you.

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder."

xoxo Love, your baby...

Sunday, July 20, 2008

&& everything's just wrong. when ur not here next to me... ♥

just a little venting... ish... kinda... idk...

today's okay... but tomorrow'll be worse... with you gone.. i just don't know what to do... anything and everything just reminds me of you... and i know if i were u.. i wouldn't wanna hear this.. but, the thought of you brings tears to my eyes... sometimes they're sad tears.. the ones because i miss you; because it's not fair; because it hurts; because i love you... and sometimes they're those good tears.. the ones because i appreciate you; because the good memories; because i'm sure my heart's growing stronger; because i love you... but more importantly because you love me.... and ur all i ever think about... they say u've become my life... and honestly.. i'm not ready to deny it.... cuz maybe it's true.. i've never felt so alone with so many people still around me... and just when i'm trying to distract my mind, to maybe think of something else.... there it is.. the text... u text me... even when ur not allowed to... and those 4 simple words... those 4 words that make my day... "hey.... i love you :)" oh.. how i'm gonna miss you soo much..... oh.. how i .. already.. miss you... sooo much... and i pray for the strength... cuz like i said.... it's easy to hate... but it takes strength and courage to love...

"Abscence makes the heart grow fonder."

xoxo Love, your baby...

Monday, July 14, 2008

We Miss You Selena... and you still inspire people today, including me (:

Tu eres mi amor, mi vida
Sabes que no es un mentira
Solo vivo por tu amor
Porque tu haces mi vida mas mejor

Cuando estas muy cerca
No puedo respirar
Y cuando escucho tu voz
Mi corazon no puede funccionar

Puedes darme todo del mundo
Pero cuando no estas aqui, nada tiene importancia
Mi amor para ti es profundo
Y yo deseo que te sientes lo mismo

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Love Me Like There's No Tomorrow, Baby <3

I can't believe you're mine, sweetheart,
And I'm just not complete when we're apart.
You've been my everything, for oh so long,
And I always hoped that we belonged.

It was like a sign,
Always on my mind,
Melt my heart like ice.

Your hand in mine,
When they're intertwined,
Feels like paradise.

Feels like wishing since forever,
But now that we're together,
I hope you'll love me till the end of time.
I hope you won't find loving me a crime.

And I'm sorry if I incriminate you with this kiss,
If they put me on trial I'll say, "I couldn't resist."
So when the judge finally bangs the gavel with the verdict,
He'll say something no one could have been able to predict.

"They are not innocent, because they must have control.
For their actions? I suppose they must pay the toll.
But I cannot say they are one hundred percent guilty,
Because love makes you do things where others might not agree."

As for his decision, he let them off the hook,
And before he did he flipped through the pages of one giant book.
"Young lovers, never forget the meaning of true love,
Remember the one who you're always thinking of."

An interruption so to speak,
To finish the sentence she had to sneak,
In the court and on the stand,
She turned to whisper behind her hand,

"Keep in mind, time doesn't have a guarantee,
So love me like there's no tomorrow, baby."

Monday, June 23, 2008

summer love.


"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep, cause reality has finally become better than your dreams..."

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Midnight Thoughts..

Don't fear me
Don't avoid me
Don't ignore me
'Cause I may help

Don't mistreat me
Don't disrespect me
Don't hate me
'Cause I can help

It may be hard,
It may take time,
But I can wait

For you to open up,
For you to love me,
It's not too late.


________________
And if it takes all night,
I swear I'll wait,
For you,
Forever.
- Daisy by The Maine

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Somewhere out there...

When you’re thinking of someone,

Ever hope that maybe they are too?

And when they’re thinking of someone,

Ever hope that someone’s you?

The odds are small,

The chances minute.

But despite that all,

These aren’t absolute.

Could it be,

You’re thinking of me?

And at the same time, and the same sky,

A single shining star catches our eye.

And he says, “Tonight I name this star after you.”

As he gazes out upon the ocean blue.

And miles away, her quiet voice echoes,

“Tonight I name this star after you,

He’ll never know which one I chose…

You’ll never know that I chose you.”

Together Alone.

While we’re in this secret hide away,

There is one thing I hope you’ll say.

Hidden on the outskirts of this town,

Somewhere where we can’t be found.

Pushed up against the wall,

Because this area is so small.

My palms sweaty, my knees weak,

To break the silence, a sin, to speak.

So without words and without sound,

Use a language known from all around.

So just one kiss,

I can’t resist.

One I know that’s true,

One that says… “I love you.”

Could it be?

Could it be a prettier sight?

This dark, cool, summery night.

The glow that rests upon your face,

The sweet touch from your embrace.

The millions of shimmering stars up above,

Or the wonderful company of you, my love?

When my hair is moved by the slight ocean breeze,

Your hand is what brushes it back in place,

And with that hand I feel the gentle squeeze,

Butterflies come, without a trace.

And when I rest my head upon your chest,

I could fall asleep here in your arms,

Just hoping that my heart’s at rest,

And knowing you’ll never do me harm.

To be with you, just means everything.

You’re what makes my simple heart sing.

So tomorrow morning when I wake up with a smile,

I’ll wake up knowing that it was all worthwhile.

That incredible dream that was too good to be true,

That impossible dream that maybe, I was with you.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Lyrics in Life 11 [[part one]]

“Settle down, settle down, people!” yelled the teacher, trying to quiet the rambunctious class.

“What are you going to bring, Ava?” Jen asked.

“I have no clue! But this is going to be soo fun!”

“I know! I can’t believe we get to go to-”

“Cancun, children, I know it’s exciting! It’s Cancun… that’s it,” Interrupted Mr. Alvarez. “If we can’t get under control, here, how can we possibly take you to a different country?”

The class immediately stopped chatting.

“Thank you,” he continued, “now… we need you at LAX tomorrow morning at 6am. Sharp. Please remember this isn’t like school, if you’re tardy we can’t just give you a lunch detention, the consequence is you will not be boarding the plane. Also! …”

I tuned him out…

“Hey,” Cory whispered, “you going?”

“Chyeah!” I whispered to the brown-haired blue-eyed cutie to my right.

“Niice, I hear the pools are siick..”

“I know! And they have awesome golf car-“
“Excuse me. Ava. Cory. Am I interrupting something?”

“Oh. Sorry, no…” I blushed, “Actually, yes, you are.” Is what I wanted to say but of course, me, being too much of a goody two shoes, didn’t do anything about it.

After last summer and the beginning of high school Amanda had clearly shown what she was more interested in. Boys. But, hey, that’s her prerogative. She began to distance herself from her friends to get closer to Chris. I miss her… a lot, but hey what can you do? I always knew I’d lose friends throughout high school, I just never expected them to be the ones you thought were your closest. Sometimes seeing her having fun without me, is painful, not cause I’m jealous but because it reminds me of the good times we used to have. Chris can’t stand being within a twenty foot radius of me, and Amanda’s constantly around him… so it only makes it worse.

This spring break, Amanda’s grounded for being at Chris’ house till 11 at night without parents, and Chris’ high-class richy rich family is vacationing in their condo in Venice, Italy. (I swear you could name anywhere and that family’d have a condo there… haha) I hate to say this, but. Maybe… without them… this trip won’t be half bad…

[[tbc - to be continued]]

Lyrics in Life 10 1/2

So basically here’s the low-down on the end of the summer…

+ Because Chris breaks it with Ava, he’s free and Amanda needs to be free if she wants to be with him… so, she breaks it with Josh… Meanie.

+ It sucks to be Josh, you’re pretty much the only one broken-hearted… and maybe Chris… but not really…

+ It’s been a few weeks, and finally everything’s going back to normal… kinda… ish. Ava still wants Josh, and Josh has a new crush.

+ Within these weeks back to normality… the eventful summer ends.
+ So here’s the recap… up till where our story begins…

- they’re now Freshie’s in H.S.!
- it’s Spring Break!
- they’re all still single ‘cept the one who needs to be single the most… Josh.

- Josh has a new girl.
- and Ava? She’s still got it for the same man… or does she???

Sunday, May 18, 2008

freeze. frame. 618.

http://freezeframe618.blogspot.com
^ Katherine and I now use this blog for some of our pics... so yeahhh haha that's it for now also I changed the layout hope you like it!

Thursday, May 01, 2008

Leavin' - Jesse McCartney <3

LovE is EvoL <33.

Yeah, time is of the essence
&& I feel weak in your prescence
Yet no amount of time with you
Could affect me like you do

Life's about having what you don't want
&& wanting what you can't have
So why is it me, you must taunt
When I see you so clearly on the map

Hoping, praying, crying,
When there's nothing I can do
Passionately wanting, dying
Just to be with you

I have learned not to pray for things to disappear
But for the strength to overcome them
So dear God, please help me abolish my tears
And at least give the things he wants to him.


[[katherine made the title]]

Sunday, April 27, 2008

could a reflection have any less resemblance to urself?

dreaming of being myself
but don't know who that is
wishing to run free like horses
but what I'm doing's no good for my health

who knew finding something so close could be so hard
something so true could leave you scarred
just when u think you've found it all
somehow you've suddenly lost ur call

just when u don't know who u are
don't worry ur not that far
someone helps you thru the fall
and that's just when u find it all

someday my prince will come?

if I were to let it all out
would I really be able to?
would I scream and shout?
would I know what to do?
what do you do when it hurts so bad?
when nothing can make it better
and deep inside you are so sad
and the tears just keep getting wetter
then one day you find the one
the one who sweeps u off ur feet
just when u thought there was no sun
you finally know ur life's complete

Friday, January 18, 2008

School..

Yeah so I'm at school, in the library. I'm bored and couldn't care less about the Products and Services paper I'm supposed to be writing for "my business" Stupid assignment in Tech., Bus., Fin. oh well I've decided I'll do it later although I know I won't. Haha I swear my middle name is procrastinator. :] Buttttt.... I always get things done. No matter how much I procrastinate. However I wasn't always like this. I used to be just my like sister... she hates to procrastinate. I assume I always have been one to put things off till the last minute, but it wasn't till this year have I become worse... I better go, ttyl :]

- Carolyn <3

Saturday, January 12, 2008

At Tiffany'ssss :D

hey I'm at tiffany's we're thinking about makin a vid lol idk what about but yesss we will make it haha maybe w/e if we do I'll post it to my youtube account ttyl

Friday, January 11, 2008

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The Eye-Fi memory card is a memory card that wirelessly sends pictures from a digital camera to a computer. This lets you skip the tedious task of plugging the camera in to upload you’re pictures. It was awarded the CES (Consumer Electronics Show). Eye-Fi Inc.’s wireless card beat out 9 other competitors for the top spot in the Last Gadget Standing session, a contest made by Yahoo’s technology section. The winner is determined by the volume of the audience’s applause. The $100 Eye-Fi card has 2 GB of memory and uses Wi-Fi to instantly transfer pictures to computers and photo-sharing web sites. Some of it’s rivals included a golf silmulator, a Toshiba wireless projector and the Sansa TakeTV, a USB memory stick from SanDisk that is designed for transferring video from the Internet to the TV.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Ahh-Ahh-Anniversary :D

:[ I wanted to post yesterday cause then it would technically be the official anniversary but today will have to do :D I can't believe I started this... however many years ago lol well yeah I guess dats ittt fer noww

Friday, January 04, 2008

The Lyrics in Life 10

"Mom! I'm home!" I dropped my coat and purse simultaniously by the front door . Kicking off my shoes, I reached into the pocket of Amanda's green sweater for my cell phone. No. No one feels i'm special enough to contact at the moment, I thought. "Like I want anyone to contact me right now..." I mumbled to myself.
Upstairs I laid in bed with my iPod, contemplating my "situation". Flipping through the assortment of somewhat love-y pop songs in a playlist, I found myself pulling out the headphones and resting the small music player on my bed-side table. Just listening to those songs, and they're stupid plot lines... Any of which I'd love to be a part of. The songs of how you think you've found the one. How it's too good to be true, as if it were a fairy tale. How the chances of it were one in a million. How at first everything was hopeless you thought you'd never be together, but sha-bam. What do you know? It was always meant to be. Laying there I slowly realized I had made a huge mistake.

One week later.
"Look Chris I just don't know if-- Well ya know......"
My voice trailed off as, out of the corner of my eye, I watched Amanda plant a big one on... Josh.
"I know.... what?" He waved his hand at me. My jaw was now on the floor, and if I didn't close it soon and ant'd crawl in. He squinted his eyes at me as if a better look at me would explain my strange behavior.
Amanda pulled away from Josh, and glanced my way. NO. Omigawsh. Oh no she didn't. She was nawt trying to make me jeal-- Wait. Why would she try to make me jealous? That wouldn't make sense. But... Chris? Yes... Oh yes, Chris.
"Ava... hello?" He again waved his hand in front of my face. I thrust my arms around his neck and kissed him, in hopes that someone were to sneak a glance. I don't know what possessed me to do that. Maybe it was the iwantJoshmorethanAmanda monster in me or the idespiseAmandaforbetrayingme monster in me, I don't know which. Possibly both.
Releasing my grip on Chris, he stepped back, a little breathless.
"Ava......" He smiled, speechless. "You... I thought that you were going to.... Ya know, Ava that you are one confusing girl."
I laughed. Boy, did I know that. If anyone knew that it was me.
"Thought what? I was gonna break up with you again?" I said jokingly, although I was clearly going to.
"Yeah....."
"Pshh..." I laughed. "Ahvcourse nawt, Josh."
"Josh?"
Good lord. Someone stab me.
"What??" I asked innocently. Hey, when you're a blonde and you say "what??" you always sound dumb and innocent.
"You said Josh."
"Oh... well I meant Chris. You know that. Besides I call people Josh on accident all the time. Only cause we hang out all the time. Well cause we're friends ya kno--"
"Oh yeah Ava. I know all right. Look this past week it's been Josh this and Josh that. If you like to spend so much time with him then don't let me get in the way. Now you can spend all the time you could have been with me with your Josh. I'm nawt stupid. And I don't want to be a part of your phony little games. Grow up. Goodbye Ava."
"But--"
The extremes you'll go to for love...
"Everywhere I Go" by Katharine McPhee
It's funny how you think you really know yourself
Like you would never lose yourself to someone else
And I was up to thinking it was all about you and me
Silly, silly me
And I want this to be over
I so want this to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you
'Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do, boy
I just can't get you out of my head
I want you out of my head

The Reincarnation of "THE LYRICS IN LIFE"

oh.
ehm.
gee.

Yes. This is what everyone's been waiting for... or well I think some people may have been waiting for.. hehehe or that I'm hoping people were waiting for.. anywaysss ... YES I AM RESTARTING MY ONCE WORLD FAMOUS BEST-SELLING NOVEL. (haha people barely know it and I'm not even selling it haha oh well) Well I'm gonna go upstairs now before I get in trouble and start writing some stuff under my bed maybe with my cell phone light or somethin' cuz well I'm nawt tired but yeahh HERE I GO it'll never get done if I never start. :]

Thursday, January 03, 2008

Ever play the "Inside Joke Game"?

Thee. Best. Game. Everrr.
I made up this game tonight. It's a lot of fun, well for really close people say siblings or best friends. You need to play with people you have a lot of inside jokes with or people you spend a lot of time with. I played with my sisters, Katherine and Emily, and our friend Tiffany. We had a buh-last.
What you do is you have each person take turns in saying a topic, word, or theme that will get everyone to think of inside jokes you have together. Some we used are "Theme Songs" "Halloween" "Harry Potter" "People in Cars", etc. These may not make sense to you like I said come up with words, phrases, etc. that will make people think of inside jokes. Everyone write down as many as you can think of. It's fun to try and see how many everyone can match. Hope you enjoy, cause I know I did heehee I love to laugh :D

The Start of Something New... <3

Yes. It's 2008, and yes it's hard to believe another year has gone and past. I sure hope that this year will bring new joys and surprises just like last year did. Just like that lame High School Musical song says "The Start of Something New" While I enjoyed 2007 I hope for the "start of something new" Happy New Year, everyone!
-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-
oh seven was heaven
but oh eight will be guh-reat

If you put your heart and soul into everything you did, I'd love you too.