The Lyrics in Life 10

"Mom! I'm home!" I dropped my coat and purse simultaniously by the front door . Kicking off my shoes, I reached into the pocket of Amanda's green sweater for my cell phone. No. No one feels i'm special enough to contact at the moment, I thought. "Like I want anyone to contact me right now..." I mumbled to myself.
Upstairs I laid in bed with my iPod, contemplating my "situation". Flipping through the assortment of somewhat love-y pop songs in a playlist, I found myself pulling out the headphones and resting the small music player on my bed-side table. Just listening to those songs, and they're stupid plot lines... Any of which I'd love to be a part of. The songs of how you think you've found the one. How it's too good to be true, as if it were a fairy tale. How the chances of it were one in a million. How at first everything was hopeless you thought you'd never be together, but sha-bam. What do you know? It was always meant to be. Laying there I slowly realized I had made a huge mistake.

One week later.
"Look Chris I just don't know if-- Well ya know......"
My voice trailed off as, out of the corner of my eye, I watched Amanda plant a big one on... Josh.
"I know.... what?" He waved his hand at me. My jaw was now on the floor, and if I didn't close it soon and ant'd crawl in. He squinted his eyes at me as if a better look at me would explain my strange behavior.
Amanda pulled away from Josh, and glanced my way. NO. Omigawsh. Oh no she didn't. She was nawt trying to make me jeal-- Wait. Why would she try to make me jealous? That wouldn't make sense. But... Chris? Yes... Oh yes, Chris.
"Ava... hello?" He again waved his hand in front of my face. I thrust my arms around his neck and kissed him, in hopes that someone were to sneak a glance. I don't know what possessed me to do that. Maybe it was the iwantJoshmorethanAmanda monster in me or the idespiseAmandaforbetrayingme monster in me, I don't know which. Possibly both.
Releasing my grip on Chris, he stepped back, a little breathless.
"Ava......" He smiled, speechless. "You... I thought that you were going to.... Ya know, Ava that you are one confusing girl."
I laughed. Boy, did I know that. If anyone knew that it was me.
"Thought what? I was gonna break up with you again?" I said jokingly, although I was clearly going to.
"Yeah....."
"Pshh..." I laughed. "Ahvcourse nawt, Josh."
"Josh?"
Good lord. Someone stab me.
"What??" I asked innocently. Hey, when you're a blonde and you say "what??" you always sound dumb and innocent.
"You said Josh."
"Oh... well I meant Chris. You know that. Besides I call people Josh on accident all the time. Only cause we hang out all the time. Well cause we're friends ya kno--"
"Oh yeah Ava. I know all right. Look this past week it's been Josh this and Josh that. If you like to spend so much time with him then don't let me get in the way. Now you can spend all the time you could have been with me with your Josh. I'm nawt stupid. And I don't want to be a part of your phony little games. Grow up. Goodbye Ava."
"But--"
The extremes you'll go to for love...
"Everywhere I Go" by Katharine McPhee
It's funny how you think you really know yourself
Like you would never lose yourself to someone else
And I was up to thinking it was all about you and me
Silly, silly me
And I want this to be over
I so want this to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you
'Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do, boy
I just can't get you out of my head
I want you out of my head