&& everything's just wrong. when ur not here next to me... ♥ [[day3]]

tomorrow.... :)

i hope u missed me... if u told me the truth.. and that u didn't, i suppose i'd be a little hurt.. but i'd definitely be happier u were honest with me regardless of the fact that we all know sometimes "the truth hurts".. well... for me... to be honest, i missed you.. a lot. i know at some times i tried soo hard to not think about it.... but in the end.. i couldn't help it... u mean so much to me... today robot rock came on the radio and i go "ohh he likes this song..." :) and i stop.. and she goes... "stop imagining him. i know you are... you have that look." but.. i didn't stop... i didn't care.... i was smiling... and you were with me.. for a minute..... hmm... :) and tomorrow the second you can use your phone, i really hope... that first call is to me. i can't describe what it feels like to see your name light up on my phone screen.. hehe i wish it'd show up on my screen more often lol but w/e anyways.. :) i've realized i could prbbly last longer... but i don't wanna. hahhaa i miss you... and love you... definitely the second one. hahaha not to say that i don't mean the first one... ugh nvm hahaha both of em... i miss you... i love you steven.

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder."

xoxo Love, your baby...

&& everything's just wrong. when ur not here next to me... ♥ [[day2]]

here i go again... just tomorrow... and then next day ur back... i can do it :)

i know that thinking of you all the time is sweet, and cute, and whatever else... but right now... trying to take my mind off of you.. makes me feel better... and right now... night times worse... just like u used to tell me... day time is fine it's all cool there are ppl and stuff that can kinda get ur mind off of it.. well not off of it but it's just ok to think about cuz u don't get a lot of time to think about it... but at night.... it's different and ur alone... u've got all night to think... alright well it doesn't matter.. right now i'm talking with her about how sweet u r, cute u r, and how ahmaazing u r... :) i'm thinking of u... and idc how much it hurts.... i'm not crying. and i'm getting stronger. :) ..... i love you.

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder."

xoxo Love, your baby...

&& everything's just wrong. when ur not here next to me... ♥

just a little venting... ish... kinda... idk...

today's okay... but tomorrow'll be worse... with you gone.. i just don't know what to do... anything and everything just reminds me of you... and i know if i were u.. i wouldn't wanna hear this.. but, the thought of you brings tears to my eyes... sometimes they're sad tears.. the ones because i miss you; because it's not fair; because it hurts; because i love you... and sometimes they're those good tears.. the ones because i appreciate you; because the good memories; because i'm sure my heart's growing stronger; because i love you... but more importantly because you love me.... and ur all i ever think about... they say u've become my life... and honestly.. i'm not ready to deny it.... cuz maybe it's true.. i've never felt so alone with so many people still around me... and just when i'm trying to distract my mind, to maybe think of something else.... there it is.. the text... u text me... even when ur not allowed to... and those 4 simple words... those 4 words that make my day... "hey.... i love you :)" oh.. how i'm gonna miss you soo much..... oh.. how i .. already.. miss you... sooo much... and i pray for the strength... cuz like i said.... it's easy to hate... but it takes strength and courage to love...

"Abscence makes the heart grow fonder."

xoxo Love, your baby...

We Miss You Selena... and you still inspire people today, including me (:

Tu eres mi amor, mi vida
Sabes que no es un mentira
Solo vivo por tu amor
Porque tu haces mi vida mas mejor

Cuando estas muy cerca
No puedo respirar
Y cuando escucho tu voz
Mi corazon no puede funccionar

Puedes darme todo del mundo
Pero cuando no estas aqui, nada tiene importancia
Mi amor para ti es profundo
Y yo deseo que te sientes lo mismo