&& everything's just wrong. when ur not here next to me... ♥

just a little venting... ish... kinda... idk...

today's okay... but tomorrow'll be worse... with you gone.. i just don't know what to do... anything and everything just reminds me of you... and i know if i were u.. i wouldn't wanna hear this.. but, the thought of you brings tears to my eyes... sometimes they're sad tears.. the ones because i miss you; because it's not fair; because it hurts; because i love you... and sometimes they're those good tears.. the ones because i appreciate you; because the good memories; because i'm sure my heart's growing stronger; because i love you... but more importantly because you love me.... and ur all i ever think about... they say u've become my life... and honestly.. i'm not ready to deny it.... cuz maybe it's true.. i've never felt so alone with so many people still around me... and just when i'm trying to distract my mind, to maybe think of something else.... there it is.. the text... u text me... even when ur not allowed to... and those 4 simple words... those 4 words that make my day... "hey.... i love you :)" oh.. how i'm gonna miss you soo much..... oh.. how i .. already.. miss you... sooo much... and i pray for the strength... cuz like i said.... it's easy to hate... but it takes strength and courage to love...

"Abscence makes the heart grow fonder."

xoxo Love, your baby...